life

well jeez thank god it's friday! another hectic week, nothing new. there have been lots of deaths happening that have hit close to home. it has certainly made me think of how special every day is and how much you should appreciate the people around you. it's always easier to say than to do, of course. sigh. i do try to be better but it's hard at times. i feel like i have to put forth more effort than others with friends and family. i try not to be so petty and forget old grudges and dumb arguments, this i have gotten better at, but there is only so much one can do. i can't always give and get nothing in return, especially if there's not even an effort. come on, i'm not made to be walked on.

my family....

at times i get really frustrated and blue but it is what it is and sometimes things are out of your control...you can only do so much and the rest you will have to accept and leave in god's hands.